I felt confined, my breath getting heavier, When my comfort and anxiety collide, As I dwell within this small chamber, Where my truths and secrets reside.
It was enclosed by translucent walls, A closet made of glass, a fragile pane, Where my veiled truths silently stall, Yet still obscured as my fears remain.
Through the glass, I know the world can see, But what lies ahead remains a mystery, As I hoped for people to hear my plea, For support, acceptance, and authenticity.
My heart beats loudly against the glass, Longing to break it and shatter my fears, To fully embrace the freedom at last, And step into the light, unbound by tears.
So, let the sunlight shine through, Have it disperse into various hues, As I muster the courage to break through, And reveal myself, authentic and true.
True friends are hard to find, Those who won’t leave you behind, People with whom you can confide, And will always stay by your side.
They’ll put a smile on your face, Comfort you in their embrace, Never fail to make you laugh, Even when things get tough.
They’re the ones who truly care, Will listen intently while you share, Valuable lessons in your life they’ll leave, With the words of advice that they give.
Even when you don’t talk for so long, Your friendship still remains strong. Even when distance sets you apart, They’ll always stay in your heart.
So if you think you already found them, Treasure your friendship like a gem, Cherish your moments together, And hold on to them forever.
What once was lost can still be found, Even though life may seem overwhelming, We’ll rise above and stand our ground.
Despite how many times things turn around, Hold on to that hope that keeps you going, For what once was lost can still be found.
Even how strong darkness may surround Our world that’s starting to lose its meaning, We’ll rise above and stand our ground.
Though sadness may be too profound, Never give up, never stop believing, For what once lost can still be found.
Even if our minds become unsound From voices within that’s too deafening, We’ll rise above and stand our ground.
So, let resilience in our hearts resound, Together, we’ll stand and keep on trying, For what once lost can still be found, We’ll rise above and stand our ground.
Oh, my love, you inspire me to write, How I love the way you make me smile, Invading my mind through day and night, Making every moment of my life worthwhile.
I could still remember how it all started, It was when I woke up at 3 in the morning, You sent me numbers I have decoded, Your own cute little way of confessing.
Oh, my love, you make my heart race, Each time our hands would intertwine. I can feel the warmth of your embrace, Assuring me that I’ll be forever thine.
With you in my life, I feel complete, You’re the person I’d always want to stay, You’re someone I’ll never regret to meet, The person that I’ll choose every day.
You made me experience a lot of firsts, Appeased my hunger, quenched my thirst. You lit my world and built me up, You brought me love and filled my cup.
As time flew by, doubts crept in, Our love got lost in between. You became the one to tear me down, Alone in the darkness, you let me drown.
For all the times you hurt me in the past, I knew our love would never last. For all the times you abandoned me, Now I learned to do nothing for thee.
You pained me so much, it was hard to bear, I began to lose all my care. Although I want to try once more, Walls are now built higher than before.
What more was there for me to say? When all the love was washed away. How should I stand and begin again? When nothing’s left but sadness and pain.
A poem inspired by the Thai drama “Last Twilight” by Braine Syedwin
He was living his life like any other, As a young badminton player, Until an accident with Night Deteriorated his eyesight.
His whole life changed. He went blind, subtly estranged, Forced to look for a caretaker Who turned out to be a lawbreaker.
Phi was once a prisoner. A bad boy, as they say, With studs on his left ear, And dresses like a gangster.
His whole life changed When his sister Rung died, Met this guy who’s blind, Worked, stayed by his side.
Their worlds may seem different Yet they were so much alike, Both outcasts in their own ways, Both wanted to have a normal life.
Two hearts, two souls entwined. With the scent of Day’s jasmine And the glow from Mhok’s cigarette embers, Their feelings bloom like sunflowers.
But with the intervention of August, For a while, Nong went lost, Yet Phi led him the way, With a kiss for his lovely Day.
As days passed, they got caught in a race Where hearts in love and tandem chase. The Day hesitated but soon crossed the line And together they sway as love’s stars align.
To each other’s world, they brought back life, Treated how a normal person should be like. Love transcends, blindness bows to the light, And amidst the dark, a hope emerged so bright.
Before darkness completely engulfed The rest of what’s left of the Day, He searched for the meaning Of his last light remaining.
And with the one-palm distance Left of his blurred ability to see, He made it worthwhile With the last image of his Phi.
And when he thought There already comes aid, Hopes were again shattered After the first surgery was made.
And from being Nong’s caretaker To his devoted and over-caring lover, Phi eventually began to feel pity, Lied, even refused a job opportunity.
The Day was dumbfounded, Heartbreak hung in the air. Boundaries, once shattered, Were then rebuilt with care.
Things went adrift, they parted ways, Three years sailed by in a muted haze. Yet as fate unfolds, growth silently spun To begin again with the same person.
A normal life was what he wanted, Then a normal love is what he should have, One that allows for a second chance For himself to be happy and again feel love.
With another dance, they sway once more To a stronger love, forevermore. And when there comes the cure, His last image becomes the first picture.
As clarity deluges his eyesight, There comes the Last Twilight. A sweet kiss shared, as lovers may, By our Big Mhok and Little Day.
Hey there, I’ve just started releasing the chapters of my first-ever short novel, The Love That Could Have Been, on Wattpad. Feel free to check it out!
The Love That Could Have Been
Book Synopsis
UNRAVEL THE MYSTERIES OF THE PAST… ON THIS POIGNANT JOURNEY OF SELF-DISCOVERY…
Dawn wakes up without any memories of her past. As she struggles to piece together the fragments of her identity and navigate the complexities of her amnesiac state, an encounter with a mysterious guy triggers an unexpected connection that resonates deep within her. This guy seems to hold plenty of untold stories and hidden truths, the key to unlocking the secrets of her past. As Dawn spends more time with him, fragments of memories begin to surface. However, doubts start to creep in as the memories unfold in ways that feel strangely unfamiliar. Dawn begins to question whether these memories truly belong to her or are they just borrowed fragments from someone else’s life.
The Love That Could Have Been is a cathartic tale of self-discovery, where the blurred lines of memory lead to revelations that redefine the boundaries of identity. Dawn’s quest for the truth becomes a compelling exploration of past hurts, as she grapples with the question: Whose memories are these, and why does she have them?
Braine Syedwin 